when i was younger i didn't feel old
and now i'm younger but i'm starting how to learn how to do what i'm told

so every night i'm smoking cigarettes in my dreams
i'm losing my teeth

and every night i wake up 3 am
on the nose
and there's no feeling in my toes
but my teeth are still at home

so i thank my lucky stars that i'm alive
and i thank god that im alive
and i thank god i haven't died
and i thank god i'm gonna die



but mother nature and father
time have combined to
insure that your demise is a
gradual decline

and the choice is up to you
whether it comes pretty soon
or whether you stay to pay your dues
just don't watch the evening news

cause i for one placed my cosmic bets on a dying sun
so when tomorrow morning comes
i'll press my fingers against my gums

and maybe this will be the glitch
when exposed nerves meet my finger tips
as cartilage and ligaments crack and splinter out my skin

and when they splinter out my skin
metamorphoses begins
my heart refracts a sinister twin
breathing without oxygen

and though i try to smother it
it breathes
it beats
it ticks as if counting down the inevitable

regression to a place before space and time
when our fetal conscious were entwined
before we separately broke free and
and crash landed separately

and now stranded separately
but some of us have memories
and we want back so god help me
we're trying can't you see



it's almost 1 now i must be home
but we can't that word without a sarcastic overtone
and, wouldn't it be nice to go to sleep



when the ocean washes over my grave it's gonna wash over yours too. that's right mother fucker, when i go down i'm taking you with me. when my rotting corpse is laid beneath the sand you will be my postmortem twin. i don't care what it takes, you're never going to hurt anyone ever again.
when you entered this world beside me, you vowed- you… you vowed to make me angry.

when you entered this world beside me you vowed to forever change the way i perceive reality. you promised to make every day drag on for eternity and every night feel like tumbling deeper and deeper into the inky blackness of what i thought was a bottomless well. but i hit the bottom hard, and now climbing to the top faster than you ever thought i would, and as the universe is my witness, i'm gonna get you.